I've been spending the past week not getting much sleep.  Waking up between 2 to 3am. Now I'm back to the old schedule and I'm still awake at 3:30am. Isn't night time interesting.  It's like the day washes away and it's a new world.  No expectations.  You can't do anything about anything at 3:30 in the morning, so all the fears and thoughts of looking for work or trying to finish something - it all just goes away. Late night / early morning is a recess from the world.  The time when the world can't and doesn't dare demand anything from me.  I wish I could keep a little of what I feel and take it to the next day.  Take this feeling of freedom when time stands still and I have the world to myself.  But it seems like it just fades in daylight, but each night I try. I try to bring it with me.  Maybe just going about it in a different way is the answer.  There is no short road. 

Enough of my ramblings, good night.